A quick page about J's bear. I have sewed that bear's lips on so many times, and I hardly ever sew anything except buttons back on clothing when they fall off. Made with Studio calico lawn party main kit.
Took the plunge and ordered some project life page protectors. Now to figure out how to do PL, cont. using up kits, finish the taxes, and do more CMEs. :) Happy Wednesday to you! Until tomorrow.
Friday, February 17, 2012
Someone once told me, that if you came to a bonfire and everyone around the circle was throwing their problems on the fire, that once you saw all their problems you would immediately take yours back. I think this accurately sums up my week.
I haven't been feeling well all week, but I hung in there. Didn't miss any work or anything. Nothing really terrible happened. It all turned out fine. But I just had this sense that things were so hard, or heavy, or bigger than me and what I could handle presently. I just could not find my sense of inner peace or well being. It has left me confused.
Contrasted with a year and 1/2 ago, my burdens seem much lighter now. Then: I returned to work after 3.5 yrs at home with J. J went to preschool and had difficulty adjusting (probably because the teachers couldn't understand him with the speech difficulties). J's speech difficulties. My dh deployed to a very dangerous assignment (on top of a recent previous stressful deployment and house buying experience-alone). And then my grandmother died. I think it's little wonder that was the straw that broke the camel's back and sent my into my first flare.
I didn't have any of those issues now. Things really are so much better. J is thriving in school, excelling with speech, happy with his teachers/and they with him. I'm comfortable at my job. My dh is home, with no deployments on the horizon. And so, I feel kind of betrayed that my body would go into a flare or a mini flare or something. I still don't understand it. But I guess I'm never going to understand this illness. It's always going to leave me guessing, second guessing, wondering, blaming, and feeling double-crossed.
And yet, I know how incredibly blessed I am. I did some blog hopping tonight, first time in a while. And I truly would take my problems over anyone elses. Funny how that works. :)
Happy weekend to you. Until tomorrow. Needing to print some photos to scrap with. :)